Saturday, February 27, 2016

You Feel So Far

You Feel So Far

I know that You are right here with me
I know that You truly care
I know Your name is above every name
I know of my sin that You would bear
But You feel so far

You are Adonai Purifier
You are the Comforter of those who mourn
You are the Healer of the sick and broken
You are where the world would release its scorn
But You feel so far

Where would I be without Your Spirit?
Where would I release these deep sorrows?
Where would hope hide if You had not found it?
Where would love rest if You had not abode?
But You feel so far

When will these thoughts stop trampling me?
When will peace be a friend of mine?
When will affliction be just a memory?
When will joy toast to a gleeful night?
So You don't feel so far

Thursday, February 25, 2016

The Maestro

The Maestro

Rhythms of creation
Providential patterns 
Resonate in an orchestra of peace
Obey the One
The Maestro
Who composes with scarred hands and feet
On a throne He sits
At God's right hand
Waving His sovereign baton
Heavenly sounds
A perfect symphony
Permeates every realm and beyond

Thursday, February 18, 2016

My Redeemer

My Redeemer

My Redeemer
Lift up my soul
It has been beaten 
Barren in turmoil
All I can think of
Is how I have failed
All I can sing of
Are sorrowful tales

My Redeemer
Take all my rags
Soiled and filthy
I've raised the white flag
I can't do it alone
No matter my effort
I trip and I stumble 
I've lost all of life's pleasure

My Redeemer
All I have is a frown
This smile I make
Is me sad upside down
Fill me once more
Take the sorrow within
Empty me of me
Fill me with You once again

My Redeemer
I have nothing to give
Take all that I am
So I truly may live
Take the depths of my soul
Take my shame and remorse
Exchange it with goodness
Show me Holiness' course

My Redeemer
You walked as a man
You've hurt, You've wept
They stuck nails through your hands
You were hung on a cross
While a spear pierced Your side
Blood and water flowed down
Humility conquered pride

My Redeemer
Now when I feel pain
I remember this image
Of You being hanged
You know what it's like
To hurt for no reason
After all you paid the price
You took on the world's treason

My Redeemer

Tuesday, February 16, 2016

Let the Rain Fall

Let the Rain Fall

I have come to a place
A fork in the road
I have a choice to make
Your glory or my own
Why does my soul deep within
Want the glory for itself
Like Robin Hood once did
Justifying acts of theft
Robbing glory from the rich
For all this world is fully yours
And giving to the poor
Poor delusions of grandeur
My depravity within
Envies the easier direction
Less pain and more glory
Selfish gains but more deception
Lies like these I've chased before
But this time it will be different
I've embraced the struggle of Your way
I now trust in Your vision
Though what I see are storms and rain
I hear thunders of affliction
There are various terrains ahead
How is this the path of conviction?
Have I had nails in my hands
Or thorns upon my brow?
You took my sin and shame
What's a little rain and clouds?
This path of great sorrow
but such greater reward
Is from my All in All
I trust you Lord I will endure...

So let the rain fall

Sunday, February 14, 2016

I Will Rest In His Name

I Will Rest In His Name

Have you ever been broken
Trails of tears on your cheek
Has your faith been outspoken
By doubt and disbelief
Have you fought through the demons
Through the bad and the worse
When the walls are caving in
And you're sure there's a curse
Intruding through thoughts
They attack who you are
Hissing and gnawing
While repeating past scars
To me this has happened
A dark night in my room
I fought and I fought
But the thoughts continued
My jaw and fists clinched
I had enough of all this
I called on a name
That one day I had missed
The One who had come
And conquered the dark
Bringing light to the deep
Raising up for my heart
From Judah to Nazareth
He lived in my place 
He never once failed 
Though they spat in His face 
The suffering He felt
No one can compare
The full wrath of God
Is what He had to bear
Justice and Mercy
Such uncommon mates
Met there upon Jesus'
Irresistible grace
In His name I now rest
Through the storm and the still
It's not always easy
But by His wounds I am healed

Wednesday, February 10, 2016

Awaken My Hope

I reached deep into my soul to express what it feels like when depression hits me. I know it will come now and then & when it does I cannot stop it but I can weather the storm as it passes. For I know my hope will awaken once again.


Awaken My Hope


There is a void growing quickly
That I've come to know
But I thirst for your presence
To stay with me and sow
The darkness keeps growing
Though I crave your Light
Overshadows my yearning
For your face in the night
The more that I seek you
The further I feel
Is your back turning on me
As I nip at your heels?
The void it keeps growing
No matter my pace
I sprint faster and faster
To catch up to your grace
The darkness consumes me
Shadows fall all around
No light in the distance
I fall on the ground
Do I continue this journey
With my face in the sand?
Crawling and begging
For separation to end
Out of breath and persistence
I remember Your Word
You will never forsake me
That's what I have learned
So here in the darkness
I will be still and wait
Knowing that you are good
My hope soon will awake

Sunday, February 7, 2016

My Katie

I hope that other men may find a wife that will love them through anything like my wife has me. I am blessed & so grateful for my beautiful, loving, sexy & amazing bride. This is for you my love.

My Katie

This woman of mine
She stands by my side
When times are bright or dark
She loves me so well
Like I've cast a spell
Though powers I do not embark
The life she gives
Makes me happy to live
It gets me through thick & thin
Even When I fall down
And break my crown
Like I'm Humpty Dumpty's kin
All the King's men
And all the King's horses
Gather all around
They watch with allure 
As she places so pure
My pieces back together & bound
She prances along
Just like the songs 
Of Solomon's beautiful Bride
Through flaws & all
There is something she saw
And in the Word her love will abide
She follows Him
She follows me
The latter I know not why
But she obeys the Lord
Even though I have scorned
Her life from time to time
She gives me reasons to live
And love to give
For her I will lay down my life
My Katie, My Love, Forever

Thursday, February 4, 2016

In Glory

It's been quite sometime since I have written anything. My heart has been under attack and my mind has been through hell recently. Then a good friend gave me a book to help me understand depression through the eyes of one of the pillars of church history, Charles Haddon Spurgeon. It's called "Spurgeon's Sorrows" and it spoke to me more in the first 50 pages than most books do in 1,000 pages. After reading last night I had to get my thoughts on paper through some poetry. This is what came out of my heart. If you struggle with depression & anxiety I strongly recommend this book.

  In Glory

Though my mind tells me one thing
Your Word says another
Feelings of loneliness & condemnation
Your grace does not falter
For my feelings are not God breathed
My thoughts in a battlefield
I will cling to the foot of the cross
I will one day be healed
In glory with you
The battle finally over
No more feelings of despair
No nagging thoughts taking over
Radiance I will see
Your face in its beauty
I will finally have rest
You will sustain me... In Glory